i tot screwing up once was bad enough. i screwed up my math test today. so altogether i screwed up twice in 1 wk. how nice! i'm like totally lking forward to my 2 wonderful yrs of jc life. what if i have to endure 3? choy!

i should've been more careful. i should've rem my formula more clearly n not do stupid careless mistakes. what's done is done. no use crying over spilt milk. i still hafta survive. sth to be happy abt is i remain consistent for my chem test. D yet again. totally stinks but at least i didnt fail. argh!! is being optimistic positive or negative?

anw super sad today no kayaking. but luckily dun have too.. coz.. ya~ lalala. haha. den we had senior servant talk with dunno who. some senior servant. completed my gp assignment and had alot of time to rot.

i'm so sick of sch. e only thing i like about wkdays is i can lk forward to e wkends. urgh!

weather's too hot. i cant take it anymore.

ohmygosh. i totally screwed up my econ test. i'm gonna fail like champion. oops contradicting. anw ya.. my curves for all 3 parts are like totally e same. wth?! i can practically just use e same curve to answer all my questions. totally just copy and paste. (a) blahblahblah.. (b) refer to (a).. (c) refer to (b). argh!!! SCREWED!!! whatever. i'm desperately hoping i'll at least pass.

my class kinda got into trouble again. well it's alwiz my class which pon lesson together. e whole class skipped math tutorial today. what a stupid idea but well.. haha. actually it's kinda useless to go for it coz i dun understand what she's talking abt AT ALL!! so we were eating happily in e canteen when we saw her walking down e steps to e canteen. den she asked us to go back to class. and i had to throw awy my food and drinks. wasted money and food. actually i kinda pity her. can u imagine her sitting in an empty classroom waiting for all of us for 20min? anw i'm beginning to like my class. actually i do like my class now. sounds crappy.

anw mon is fun w/o test in e morning. i like e fact tt we have self study period even thou it's like kinda lame but it's still gd. it gives us time to finish up (or copy) our hw.. esp when e period is after break. 2 periods to finish hw! good. it's supposed to be late mornings on both mon n tue but.. boo! hafta go sch early tmr for stupid class interaction. wth. cant we have it during pccg? cant wake up at 7 again. argh.

having math test on wed. ohno.. so many tests but so little time. bahhhhhhh.

mi n angie

although we lk reli lame but it's cute. actually i think only i lk lame but still totally love it. sheena: e next time i see u i'll strangle u. haha!

odac is getting a little more fun coz we're having kayaking 1 star course these few wks. i had my 1st lesson on wed.. it was quite fun. at 1st cant reli ctrl e way it's going but gradually mi n my partner got e hang of it and we were no longer e last to reach when dey asked us to gather. e place we had our course was kinda lousy.. no place to bathe and e only 2 toilets dey had stink like hell. in e end mi ele n hanyun "bathed" with e hose dey used to wash e kayaks.

fri was fun coz it's short. last period was pccg but instead we had to go to e hall to listen esther lai talk to us. at 1st wanted to pon but i was too coward and had to make ele sit thru 1hr of boredom with me instead of going off to catch a movie. haha.

after tt went to tamp to watch the interpreter. e trip dere was funny coz jonma was teasing darren n darren kept emphasizing tt he's nt gay. "bent or striaght is gay?" part was funny too. ele's "ur dick's harry" was hilarious. totally obscene.. all of us were laughing like siao.

ok it's wkends again and i've got lots of hw to do. how boring.

pw is totally lame. whose stupid idea is it?

wonder who likes it.

ohmygosh! i cant believe i survive odac camp. this is e most tiring camp i went to.

e 2 main things we did during e camp were solo walk n night hike. solo walk was quite fun. in order to scare us.. we had to watch the exorcist b4 e walk. e seniors started calling each person out for e walk at 12 while e rest cont watching e movie.

towards e middle of e movie nobody was willing to go for e walk coz every1 was too engrossed in watching. luckily 1 ger was so afraid she started crying den e seniors allowed e girls to go in pairs after we pleaded with them. however it was still quite scary.. most of e time we ended up scaring ourselves which is so damn funny. after walking ard e sch we had to walk out of e sch den back.

we had dirty games on e 2nd day at pasir ris park. played with ketchup flour chilli sauce soya sauce and eggs. totally disgusting. but because of this we were finally given time to bathe. my grp's campfire item was totally screwed but it's ok coz we had fun. after tt it was night hike. hated it. we had 5 checkpts altogether. first we had to walk frm sch to bedok reservoir.. to siglap.. den expo to sunplaza park den lastly back to mjc. i was so deprived of slp tt i started hallucinating in e middle of e walk. i tot ele was talking to me but actually she was in another grp.

water games on e last day was fun. all e grps played dog n bone together. den dere was a sec game but it turned chaotic.. every1 started throwing water bombs at 1 another.

im so glad camp has finally ended. i can bathe as n when i like. i can slp on my comfy bed too. yays!

i'll be gone till sun. oh mann i'll miss my bed like crazy.

sian. :(

tests are good coz you'll know ur standard. at least u'll noe if u reli understand e chapters anot. however i feel tt dey shudnt include e marks for lecture tests or any tests we have normally during promos. it's like so unfair. what if i take a longer time to grasp a particular topic but due to lack of time den i fail e test but i did well for my midyr. and because of e test.. it pulls my whole grade down.. isnt it a pity?

i totally love short days like today. ended sch at 230.. was thinking of going jogging but i tot slping was more impt so i slpt all e way to 7. whee!! but i'm nt doing anything constructive right now so it's kinda a waste. like.. i did nth in e afternn other den slping coz i'm thinking of studying at night but i'm nt studying at night.. instead i'm rotting away online.

anw i'll be having odac camp frm tmr till sun afternn. dey're having night hike tmr night.. i'm kinda scared of walking in e dark but i guess it's alright walking in a big grp right? dun make mi walk solo and i'll be happy.

:)

well i'm like totally happy tt some "cheeks" has gotten a blog. realised tt i reli miss cheeks alot.

ok actually my cg isnt too bad.. i'll slowly get used to it even thou i still erm.. ok nvm. my tutors are nt as gd as 1st 3 mths'. hopefully dey arent too bad but alot depends on ourselves rite? ok i'll work hard.

i feel so aimless nowadays. i've no idea why i'm here for. it's like i reli cant see what my future will be like. whats going to happen after i graduate frm jc? what am i going to do after tt. it seems like alot of ppl are going to go into business in uni and i'm like one of them.. am i just following them blindly because i've got nth in mind? but.. will i even get promoted this yr? i dun wanna waste 1 yr of my life. i'm aging slowly.. walking nearer towards my grave every min. do i have so much time left?

lala.. ok i shud lk for sth else to put my mind into instead of brooding over sth stupid like this. doing tutorials is a gd way. haha!!

**Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you**

whats going to happen 20 yrs frm now?

i'm afraid of growing older. i cant see myself going out to work or having my own family.

i hate to know tt every1 will die someday. even my loved ones.. every1 ard me and myself.

i feel depressed just thinking abt it.

gotta know my cg alredi.

no more 05s321 for me. no more max for me. no more alfred and sarah for me.

i'm really sad. i dun like my new class. mabbe because i'm just sore abt nt getting back e same class. but i dun understand why do they hafta make me chg to s322. it's nt as if they do not have enough space in e class for me. furthermore alot of e ppl in my prev cg chged combi so there shud be lotsa space ya. there are only 16 ppl in s322.. i dislike small classes. why dun they just lemme stay in s321. even if we dun get back max.. at least i wunt feel so unhappy. but i reli do miss max's lessons.

1st 3 mths is reli a stupid idea. it just makes us miss all e friends i lost. gd tt they're gonna scrap it starting next yr.. but why cant dey do it this yr? if only they realise 1st 3 mths is stupid earlier........

whatever. i just hafta learn to love s322.

it's totally boring to have talks in e morning. u just sit there and rot only. i wonder who really listens to them. sigh. at least e college's nice enough to on e air-con for us.

anw just realised actually i missed out quite abit on math coz i kip skipping lectures. i'm a gd student today.. i stayed till so darn late in sch for lectures unlike past few days. i actually stayed till ard 2+. still dunno my cg yet but hopefully e pple will be nice.

i miss e gd old days when e whole big family used to gather at my grandpa's hse for dinner almost every wk. ever since he died it seems so hard to get every1 together. instead of missing each other.. dere seems to be more quarrels and unhappiness among us. why cant we just get along? why must some ppl be so darn selfish? especially them. totally dislike them. just hate to hear e ugly things.

i prefer to live in e past when everyone seems so happy together. mabbe i was just oblivious.

orientation was FUN!! so sad tt it's over so soon. dey shud make it last for 5 days.

anw 1st day was quite disappointing coz freshmen were all quite cold. nobody wanted to cheer. ogls were cheering most of e time which was reli sad. some ap freshies even asked e ogls why are we so enthu.

however e following 2 days were quite alright. freshmen were all warmed up and dey cheered more. dey played e games and cheered along. yays! wet and wild was on e last day. felt so dirty after tt so went to ele's hse to bathe b4 going back for campfire. so nice to see e freshmen rehearsing for their campfire item. it started to rain at ard 2+ but luckily e rain gradually stopped. was so afraid tt history will repeat itself.

even thou we didnt manage to become e champion hse but overall it was still a gd experience. gotta noe lots of nice ppl. whee. zosma ogls rocks.

lking forward to ogl outing and og outing. hehs.