i don't wish to be a taitai anymore. i want to be able to earn my money and spend my own cash. to be able to live on my own even without the support of man in the future. by depending on someone, you are exposing yourself to threats. i don't want to feel hopeless and useless if my husband desert me in the future. but hopefully it will not happen la.
anyway it's not secure what. you won't know if the person will betray you anot. the best person to trust is yourself. right? even after spending close to 20yrs together, you will still not be able to fully understand what the other person is thinking. we cant read minds, we can only infer and assume which is inaccurate.
URGH. i hate you but i still love you.