and i start to think, what if i die young like them too. what if i die before i can accomplish anything. what if i die before i can finish all my final year papers. omg some very scary thoughts. then i feel super relieved that i'm still alive and breathing, see the sun in the morning, spend 2hrs on travelling just to go and take a 2hrs paper, able to worry abt exams, talk to my parents and friends ard me, watch videos on youtube, eat, slp blahblahblah. it must have hurt real bad for their loved ones to lose them so soon. i never want to experience this kind of shit but it's impossible. it's just a matter of time, later or earlier. hopefully it's laterrrrr. like 100 yrs down the road pls.
lovelovelove my parents and everyone ard me laaa.