i just took 2 tuition assignments today which will start nx wk and i'm alr starting to regret.

some afraid i wont be able to cope with my studies/proj/whatever, even though i can earn some money. :(

hopefully i wont decide to back out after 1 mth like what i did the last time and kena pq by the tuition agency again. haha.

pity the 2 kids i'm gonna take coz i dont think i'll be a v gd tutor. just hope their results wont deteriorate.

if ur friend wants to transfer to another sch will u be influenced by her? omg i think yesyesyessss bren, hoho. but luckily i dont really see her tt often so i still can fight off the thought and anw i'll still be studying in the same fac, so quite ptless. ok i dont even know if i can get into the fac i want in tt sch but tt's another prob.

had 2hrs break before my last lec of the day today but my pri sch friend left to meet her friend coz she isnt taking the same 5th mod as me. was planning to hide in a corner and read a bk for the whole 2hrs but felt super hungry so went to the canteen to eat, on my own. after tt hide at a corner to read a bk, on my own. den some bored so walked off to the forum to gaze blankly into mid-air and pretend i was waiting for a friend and enjoying the buzz in the forum, on my own.

BLEHHHH i'm sucha loser/loner sometimes (most of the time) i feel so jealous of ppl hanging out in their grps/with their bf/gf. where're my best friends?? scattered all over spore other than nus biz, why lidat ah.

i wanna run back to pri sch/sec sch/jc and hangout with all my best friends and gossipgossip and laughlaugh at whatever nonsense and stay in my comfort zone all day long and nt be on my own.

i dont wanna make new friends.

can anyone empathise with me??

i'm nt hei ren anymore pls

brenda chai is darker than me yesyesyes!!!

time to go tanning again.

2 wks ago i was freaking frustrated abt the super major breakout on my face but then all the very big and painful acne(s?) subsided after my menses came. now, i'm super frustrated coz there's a red thing tt lk like a sibei big acne on my nose and it's been theres since erh 1 wk ago? if it's acne it should be painful and most prob be gone liao coz i put damn a lot of acne cream for super long leh!!! i could feel the whole world staring at my nose the whole of today la. :/

first day of sem2 today. v good, tuts start 2 wks later so only need to attend lecturs for now=thurs and fri free for this wk and next. GOOD.

rush off to shop on my own at bv after sch. v scorching sun when i reach there, walked ard and bought a top and a dress for cny so tt mom will stop nagging and constantly reminding me tt cny is less than a mth awy. damn tired so wanted to go home and was waiting for traffic light to turn green den BAMMMMMM super heavy rain, like cats and dogs, so everyone chiong back to bv like idiots coz traffic light turn green at tt instant. was forced to go walk ard bv yet again and feel everyone's eyes on the red "acne" thing on my nose! felt really stupid, shouldve brought my concealer out with me. :(

at least i bought some stuff today otherwise it will be a futile trip to bugis and i'll be fucking angry at myself. totally got the urge to spenddddd la but managed to stop myself yanoe, some rational thinking, weighing pros and cons and lking at the thickness/thinness of my wallet.

okkk totally lking forward to 2nd day of sem2 and after sch activities=meet up with 2 chio friends and go eat and realise got nth to do and sit ard and stare blankly at the surrounding before coming to the conclusion tt we should all go home where i can lk forward to the 3rd day of sem2.

:D

my bidding for mod is damn screwed. kena outbid and left with all those tt other ppl dont want.

BAHHHHHHHHH shit. :(

i'm like officially 20yrs old now, so old zzz. a few days ago i was still telling bren tt when i was born her mom may have just gotten pregnant sia and some other mom of my friends may nt even be pregnant yet! this just further emphasis how old i am. hahaha

anw, this year's birthday is nt as lonely as the past years. maybe it's because i'm stepping into the big 20 that's why all my friends wanna gloat at my misfortune and decided to ask me out for dinner to laugh at me becoming older sooner than all the rest of them.

anyway, celebrated with the family first. went over to my aunt's place for a small gathering on sat. had to buy cake at compasspoint because i was too lazy to go get awfully chocolate at some ulu and far place, which i've been dying to try for quite some time because its AWFULLY CHOCOLATEEE!! make do with a four leaves chocolate cake which is surprisingly niceee and ordered pizza hut for the family. yaaa i paid for it even though i was celebrating MY bday. hoho.

2nd celebration was with kt and ele friend. some v kp and creative friends of mine who came out with amazingly irritating nicknames for me throughout the years i've known them. ok erhh only like 3yrs since we became closer? malay, peck, pangseh, black zzzzz. thanks ah. had steamboat at suntec with them. thankewsss for the awfully chocolate cake and pretending tt it was very expensive. then, i blew out the candles before making a wish so they insist on doing it again. so candles were relit, i made a wish and i had to blow the candles for the 2nd time.

thanks to all who wished me a happy birthday. i think my 21st bday's theme will be GE TAI, pls lk forward to it! HAHAHA

ok i'm just jking laaaaaa

happy birthday to me!

happy new year!

hoh what an uneventful 2007.

school-less for 8months, got my 'a' lvl result and glad tt i got into a uni, even though it wasnt my first choice. didnt make many new friends but i'm glad i still have all my old friends with meee. :D

this yr, i shall study harder, be more serious about my work and try to make a few more new friends, hoho. also, try to keep my study table neater so tt my parents will be less pissed off with me.

hopefully 2008 will be a GOOOOOOD year for everyone. healthy and happy oksssss.