i'm alr lking forward to 3 mths break.

the thing is, exams 1 mth awy and i've yet to study.

but my brain is on an escapade.

emo emo, and i was wondering if i'm pms-ing

GUORAN!
menses came in the morning.

i make accurate predictions.

i hate judgements.

i hate how superficial most ppl are, even myself.


i think i can pretend i dont give a damn quite well, maybe one day i'll be so desensitized by everything i really dont give a damn anymore.

i feel tt i need to talk to someone but i dunno who to talk to and abt what.

maybe all i need is to get some slp and stop thinking too much and feel negative by the most random things happening in my life.

we always take unglam/chui photos at carl's jnr, WHY?
LOL

okkk all the other photos on facebooooook. :D:D

argh i gotta go sch tmr for makeup tut and stupid sub pool.

there're sooooo many freaking public hols this sem=damn a lot of makeup tutorials and lectures to attend la.

hopefully i can get some real work done this coming looong wkend. need to do some report writing, studying, tutorials doing and video watching. and i'm srsly v intimidated by a certain some1 for being so fusssssy abt every single stuff the rest of us write. yes sir, we will listen to u coz u're always right. ARGHHH and i feel so retarded for be asked to do this and tt when i totally dont understand what he's talking abt. maybe it's my prob, slow to catch some ballllllssssssssss.

anwsss meeting cla again tmr, we've been meeting so often! haha dinner and step up2, cant wait. i wanna do some f21 shopping with the vouchers i rcved on my bday. will try to buy random accessories/tshirts etc.



x was pissed off with y for being so "independent" and do everything on her own without saying. now x and y are pissed off with z for being so bossy and commanding. x y and z knew one another frm proj. x is confused whether y is a nice person anot. x thinks z is scary at times but yet friendly other times. x feels bad abt bitching behind the backs of y and z but still wants to be friends with them. x thinks she shall nt think too much and treat everyone as hi-bye friends. x shall be friendly to everyone.
x shall learn to be independent too.

i'm so happy!

because i got nt too bad for my fna midterm and it's the 1st time i get higher than the median mark, so congrats to myself. time to mugmugmug for fna so i can get my 1st AAAAAAAA arghhhhh.

anw yest was nus open house and i was down for some booth duty to sell snacks. omg right! and it was outdoors and the freaking sun was scorching hot and what's worse is, i sweat a lot. so basically i was like standing there sweating for 2 whole hrs lking at ppl walking past with the nus goodie bag, hoping i dont see anyone familiar and had loud music blasting in my ears because it was some nus rock fest where all the bands frm the halls were performing. they were nt too bad, except for 1 of the hall, which was far frm good.

if i can just go home after the open house, i wont complain. BUT i cant. because i had to go for my friend's band concert and i was freaking sticky and my makeup felt like dirt on my face. the feeling was so damn bad. at least the concert was nt too bad i guess. faster chiong to eat dinner after tt. :D

i wish i have more determination to do my work instead of leaving it to the last min and also muggg more!

sometimes i feel so sick of giving tuition. zzz

i feel so fat recently and i just measured my arm and my right arm is totally 3cm FATTER than my left arm. lublubbbb u left arm. to hell with u, right armmmm. NB!

i was happy coz i thought the tuition agency forgot to collect fees frm me. but the happiness was short-lived. the woman called and asked me to transfer $180 yesterday and pretended to be caring and asked how are the kids and whether i'm fine.

okays, u want moneh frm me den say, dont have to act nice and ask all this nonsense hor. u think i have a lot of time to entertain you is it.

now i have to wait another half more mth for my nx 2 $180 to be in. :(

no matter how hard i try, everyone will always be better than me.

the more i expect, the more disappointed i feel.

z.